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Writer's pictureAmanda Riddell

Conversion therapy

According to the Conversion Practices Prohibition Legislation Bill, a conversion practice is any practice, sustained effort, or treatment that is directed towards an individual because of the individual’s sexual orientation, gender identity, or gender expression. Or, is done with the intention of changing or suppressing the individual’s sexual orientation, gender identity, or gender expression. - This is precisely what Tory Whanau, VUW and many supposedly tolerant people in Wellington have done. They have attempted to alter my gender expression from that of an out trans person to that of a drag queen.

They have hidden behind the excuses of drug addiction, indecent exposure and a personal belief that I'm not trans to justify these behaviours. The sustained effort was visible in the hui, and also took over my DeviantArt feed. The clear intention of Owen and Barbara was to suppress my gender expression, and this was also the clear intention of the wannabe producers that were keen to do the Weeded Out script (so long as I took hormones, wore hair extensions and gave up the idea of living 24/7 as Amanda to be their drag bimbo). There is no valid justification for these actions and they demand an immediate and unequivocal apology. People who want me to 'reintegrate' to their society must accept that I am unwilling to do so unless these apologies take place. Absolute, unequivocal statements of guilt are necessary for my healing because they demonstrate an awareness that these actions were unlawful, and that they had significant consequences for my mental health.


Like, I'm sure that Camilla or someone else from the community mental health team could provide my file, and people could see consistent and repeated references - and multiple phone calls to the office or Te Haika - that came out of me feeling like people were trying to alter my gender expression.


Btw, that's an agreement: if Nadine wants to see the file, she can in order to understand why those apologies are necessary.


- Before the outright conversion therapy began, my crush on Chloe wasn't significant enough to result in much other than people thinking it was a bit odd that I liked her. AFTER the hui and the threats/attempts/images intended to make me detransition began, I got in trouble for being into her, and that was only AFTER I refused to produce the Tina series, and the pressure intensified. Chloe's girlfriend is also Tory's advisor, so Nadine has a lot to answer for.

I think it's fair to say that her personal feelings clouded her objectivity.


These are the legal answers: My cease and desist letters must be followed exactly. Real apologies must take place by the end of 2024. If they don't take place, my boycotts will remain indefinitely.


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As for going flatting: well, my record at the boarding houses is two uncomfortable evenings with menopausal women (neither of which resulted in sex). My record going flatting was roughly one attempted assault by a flatmate, one actual assault by a flatmate, my brother going completely mental when I came out, and my friend indecently assaulting me.


That took place within a span of about 18 months while flatting, while I've been living at the boarding houses for 4 years now. It's just safer (for me, at least).


We're beyond the safety of plausible deniability: own your transphobia, rich folks, or I'll literally never see you again!


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Amanda Riddell
Amanda Riddell
Dec 02

They started in late 2021, but I didn't take those conversion threats seriously until after the hate hui. Initially, I just thought that it was silliness and that I was paranoid.

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Amanda Riddell
Amanda Riddell
Dec 02
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As for offers of reconciliation: it's a bit like asking someone who was abused by their family or their partner to go back and it'll all be better. Telling me that I was a sick deviant with erotic fixations in order to pressure me into producing a movie put a pin in that possibility. I doubt any of them have been to any trans sensitivity courses.

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