My Mum said that I could use the trust account to pay for counselling, but the major problem with that is that it needs to be somebody that is well-versed in trans issues, because most of the stuff that I want to talk about is either things to do with dysphoria, or things to do with all the various things I've been ranting about. I went to Gender Minorities Aotearoa last year, who gave me a list of people, but none of those panned out. - Just because I've still got $46,000 in my trust account doesn't mean that I'm going to stop seeking both the apologies and compensation from VUW, Red Scare and the Wellington branch of the Green Party. At the very least all three groups have to stop using illegal methods to communicate. For me to feel safe in society again, I also expect an apology and a promise that they're going to interact respectfully in the future, rather than making insulting comments about how childish they think I am. They've driven me to drink. They've ruined my mental and physical health.
That's why I'm demanding fair and reasonable, sane and valid apologies. If they meet the terms of the cease and desist letters and formally apologise, that will go a long way towards making me feel like I'm not living in some panopticon because I'll feel like my civil rights are being respected, despite my mental health problems. - I've just been discharged from the community mental health team a month or so ago - I'm so poor that was the best way to get help - so I'm naturally very anxious at the moment. I want my life back. I want my friends back. I'd love to go to gigs, but I have to stick to my guns and force those people that manipulated my life to cease and apologise. People took every side but mine in this war, and now I'm simply putting my foot down and stating that I wrote the Tina movie on my own, therefore I get to choose to adapt it into a prose version and they get to shut up and apologise for being so rude to me. I get to say that I don't want feedback from the NZSM faculty as I'm composing, and they need to stop manipulating me if they want to ever hear a new composition (as opposed to improvising). And I also get to say that the Wellington Council can't force me to make a film, and I'm not going to shoot The Plaything this summer if they don't take my side and tell all these unscrupulous people to get stuffed.
Stop asking me to donate the script, Michelle. Sorry, but they're telling you a bunch of porkies: $50,000 is 0.01% of the university's annual operating budget.
They can easily afford it, and paying me that amount would allow me to wipe my student debt entirely. If VUW, Red Scare and the Film Commission split the cost three ways, that would be $16,666.67 each. If they can't afford that, then how on earth were they expecting to produce the damn thing?
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The Film Commission awarded $21.46 million in script development and production funding in 2022-2023. $50,000 is 0.23% of that.
This is just pathetic behaviour from people that could have bought the script, shot it, and been in post-production by now…