Sleep deprivation + releasing some baggage. But, as we've all learned by now, I tend to stand by what I say. - Real talk Yes, I’d soften some edges of my style if I didn’t have to be ‘on’ 24-7, but sadly I’ve had to be ‘on’ for several years now, and the rough elements of my style are probably why I’m seldom catcalled or any of that shit. 👍 Once I realised that my very presence was sorta scary, I rolled with that and I guess went a bit Batman with that because I was imbibing the punk attitude. As I say, I’m essentially a shock rocker, except I play showtunes and classical. - I’m yet to trust anyone to hold that space for me, so my style has evolved to have rough edges and various flourishes that dare people to say something (but also dare them to play it cool .. as if it’s too hip for them to understand). I certainly wasn’t hoping fear/disgust would be the reaction to bearded trannie me, but once that became clear, I went punk with my transition. I don’t want the whole transition. I want all the self-appointed arbiters of queerness and transness to accept that a social transition is valid. An older me might experiment with hormones and fake tits, but I’m 28 and my body is at its peak. - Here’s the nasty quip: that post where I list how my life fell apart — that’s not a novel: that’s what really happened. So I doubt that academics privileged enough to travel overseas can relate to my experience of housing instability and social exclusion. They just want to cast me as the tragic figure to make them all feel good … fuck that. - I want their respect, not their money. I don’t need the money, because this job pays $67,000 if I was full-time. And even part-time me is rich enough off this job to never need NZO or NZSO to pay me unless it’s for my compositions. I will never perform for money from those cunts … that’s final. - About the weed So, yeah, I wouldn’t sell it to you, Chlöe, but if you wanted to have a sesh I’d buy extra and give you some. That’s what happened with Gary on Wednesday, and that felt good. That was a fid and a tin, and I gave him the tin. That’s the way it’s supposed to feel imo. - Though I note that the Canberra legislation would frown on that. That’s how weak decriminalisation is. 👍 - And that’s because I like and respect her. While for my muso friends, nah. I don’t really want my drugs activism to be intertwined with my legit music career. It’s fine for AM the pop act, but for Amanda Riddell the composer I have to win from a ‘I smoke for personal use’ angle. I hope one thing I made clear was how the drugs market and the elite music world cross over. 🎹
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