My relationship with my anger...

Productive and cathartic: my anger drives my emotions.

I do not want to recreate those for TV.

I just don't want to. And that's because of the many, many psychological issues that that wouldn't solve.

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What will solve them is people including me. And I mean that they write to me, that they take me seriously. 👍

That's including me. That's why I'm more interested in what Chloe and Gary and Dakta have planned than anything else.

But for my own sanity, you've got to see why I'm not doing the show. I only end up in the Emergency Room because my emotions are uncontrollable, and that's the sort of emotions trying to act/perform provoked. 🦄

I write and I demonstrate well: that's all it can ever be. And I'm smart enough to know that.

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What VUW should do is just steal my idea. That's what the opera company did... 🤣

I don't care if they do; I remember who came up with it, and so do they.

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Because honestly we should be working on 'Amanda as someone who comes to parties in a dress' rather than the TV show. 👍⚧️

It's more important. Because that's what really hurts me: people who used to be my friends who haven't written or spoken to me for years.

I don't care about their opinions re: my drug use - the overall picture is that cannabis is useful for me, and drinking is how I coped with the last two years.

If you read the Shadbolt book extracts, you'd have seen that my longhaired hippie shtick is part of a Kiwi tradition. ⚧️⚧️🍃