Question Time 4.04.23

Question Time: total snoozer .. was yawning my way through. I still feel the same as I did last week - what's the point?? 🤔

Is it my imagination or is National getting louder?

Funny line - David Seymour saying ACT had the only sensible climate policy.

NB: I'm warmer to ACT than most lefties. I'm a libertarian too.

Great question by Debbie near the end - no answer from Labour about rongoā. 🐍

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Stuff about me:

No, I didn't promise to do the song cycle or any live gig. The tapes were the show, not an audition, and I think that speaks to a certain attitude that 'live is all-important' which the funding system entrenches. If people want to stage them, fine, but I'm not keen to do any stage work. I'm a writer, and the Dakumentary is a rare example of me doing any acting. It's mostly just me, though the hint is in the job description: 'act'-ivism.

I disagree with the live gig fanatics - the tapes have worked great for the cause and got me a job. Plus you're all watching these anyway. 🤣

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I scuppered the Tina show and made it very clear I was doing so.

The Dakumentary is something else. And honestly, there's too much me in it.

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I think the people ferreting out all the in-jokes are the autistic ones - I barely think about that .. ie 'last 5 years' wasn't an intentional reference and nor was Leanne.

And I barely think about the motifs in the doco: that's just trial and error and experimentation, like all filmmaking.

With the AI art, I chose pics that excited me, and seldom thought of the references. And re: Precious Time, I think Chlöe invented that connection. 🙄

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It's strange: the character makes people think I'm way cleverer than I really am (see: the name dramas - those were for real), yet it also makes people think I'm 'special' because I use the character to ream out my friends and enemies.

I had a lot of airtime to fill, and I'm an opinionated person who hates loads of things. My friends know I'd be the same IRL. 😛

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As for my shows last year: they were obviously for the cause. Dakta likes those songs. 👋

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I'd say the same things to their face - friends and enemies alike. I trained myself to remove my filter, and now it all spills out.

That's why I'm not chatty at work: too likely to make a faux pas. I got some good advice once at the club, which was that mana comes from silence.

So yeah. The tapes were by public demand: I was much happier typing my thoughts to myself and sort-of thinking Chlöe (and others) were reading than having to say - and sing - it all. -

That's why I love the Tina script, but decided not to do it - the script was the therapeutic thing for me. I wish my real life was like that, but I prefer being single. Not homeless. Just in crappy housing: there's people looking out for me here, like Abhi and Rodger.

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Real reason I'm skipping the Easter gig: I'm way too busy with the weed movie.

I'm getting some new footage to look at tomorrow, and each time I have to watch the whole thing.

Which yeah, makes me angry. It's entertaining, but hugely frustrating, and reminds me that I'm a second-class citizen because of my beliefs. As a trans film, I think it's fine without all my songs. I want something that TV networks would buy, and I think 5hrs is ok (spread over that many episodes). Getting the Dakumentary on TVNZ+ would be a huge win for me, and for the cause.

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And, yeah, I still have my principle that I don't want to attend a gig with someone I know who wouldn't have lunch with me. That's been my reason for skipping several gigs. 👩

I'm sick of that sort of socialising. Gigs aren't my happy place: I'd much rather the club was still open.

There's a lot of those fair weather people. To be honest, I only went to Guitar Society last weekend because I thought Jane might be there. It was a good programme, though, and it'll be good for NZ guitar when SOUNZ tapes it next month in Auckland: https://www.eventbrite.co.nz/e/thursday-heritage-concerts-sounds-of-new-zealand-tickets-588539165487

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Until I feel like those 'pass with care' signs aren't meant for me, it's pretty moot whether I'll reintegrate with a world that likes it when I play/sing, but doesn't socialise with me.

They don't like me - they just like what I do for them.. which I seldom got paid for.

The tapes had the best of both worlds - 'they' got my sound, and I got to hang out at home and get high. 🐸