I haven't seen it since I made the recent changes. Tried to today, but I think there were some syncing issues. Plus it's too recent: watching the other Dakumentary episodes is like reliving my past, but this episode is my present. My present is anxious and scary, and filled with belief that there's some anti-Amanda conspiracy: I mean, I definitely ticked off Brian Tamaki, but it's the left-leaning haters that piss me off.
Trans hate is out there, but I'm insulated from it. Even so, I've had some tension this year with a few people, and a bunch of people who miss the old me telling me to be that. There's plenty of fans in Wellington, but they're mostly broke. The rich people have the money to buy ad time to try and persuade me to do their bidding, so taking the bus to town is often stressful. My cousin-in-law Mason said not to let it bother me and that it's a state of mind regarding things that are triggering: that was good advice, but it depends on my mood if I'm able to do that.
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