What does it take for Amanda to come back to the fold, review gigs and possibly sing?

They must apologise to my face about the hate hui, the illegal spying on both my compositions and screenplays, and actually apologise for being bigots that couldn't accept my diverse sexual or gender orientation. I want to shame the Wellington rainbows for being transphobic and punching down, and I think that's very reasonable, given the way they've behaved about my choice to refuse a medical transition and keep my long sideburns and leg hair. Again, NO HORMONES. One of my paranoias is that the mental health team or some other group of people might force me to take hormones, so it's something that I really don't want to be being told by people that are supposed to be my allies. Funny, but sad. All their bullshit about passing still triggers me today. -

That is a fair and sane, stable and rational, reasonable and fair outcome.

If they don't apologise, I refuse to reintegrate. Apologies are my utu, and I'd say that RNZ might want to consider which side they're taking on this. I wasn't fired, but I also wasn't given any reason for the lack of shifts other than lower demand; so, if there was an element at the office that thought my style was too gaudy, it was never brought up with me by Anne or Mary. However, one of the reasons I'm angry at RNZ is that I had reason to believe that they were very aware of this surveillance-based OnlyFans, and were participating. That's not a good look for the central broadcaster, which has a reputation for being crappy at being able to maintain diverse talent.

They wronged me, they insulted me, they belittled me, they called me a pervert, multiple times. -

The police are clearly on my side. Please tell them that I'm within my rights to take them to court and that I could probably charge them under the crimes act if they tried to claim ownership of the script.

Please tell VUW that you - the police - are personally appalled at their treatment of someone that was clearly going through a hard time. Tell them that you liked me, even in my criminal days, and that you never pulled me up about either singing in public or any of the other shit that they called evil.

That, Cass, is my point. You're going to look bad, and you should. That, Jane, is my point. You and the NZSM faculty are going to look bad. I'm not coming to Question Time on Tuesday if this isn't resolved, even though I know that it might hurt Chloe's feelings. Given the shit her partner's done to me, I don't feel that bad about hurting her feelings. If that's what it takes to send a message to the anti-Amanda Greens that their behaviour crossed a line, then that's what it takes. If this is what it takes to send Wellington a message, then so be it: this boycott is going to last until I get the apologies and the admissions of guilt that will allow me to explain why I'm so broken to therapists and other people that might put me back together.